Lost in paradise.
As March approaches here we are again. Shattered, tired, insecure, lost and feeling utterly disgusted with myself. Oh boy.
I'm sick of feeling sick. I want to do so much and e-ve-ry-thing just comes back to money. More money than I can earn at the moment. The minute I let myself relax the world falls down on me showing me just how insignificant all my efforts are. I hate it.
My health isn't getting any better. It's like if I do something my body finds new ways of annoying me. I did vitamins - my thyroid decides to destroy me. I don't know what to do and who to trust. I'm tired of walking blindly through the never-ending bushes. I think I need to cleanse myself, do the analysis, go do the herbs, all that with exercise. Though while I was distracted by the preparations for 23rd of February, wowagent added that she doesn't add anyone not from her registration link. Oh well. Never mind. Herbs it is.
I feel like I'm letting my son down. I don't know what to do with him. It's like everything I do never makes any difference. I have nothing to teach him but bad habbits and annoying character traits.
Damn, this song is stuck in my head.
I'm sick of feeling sick. I want to do so much and e-ve-ry-thing just comes back to money. More money than I can earn at the moment. The minute I let myself relax the world falls down on me showing me just how insignificant all my efforts are. I hate it.
My health isn't getting any better. It's like if I do something my body finds new ways of annoying me. I did vitamins - my thyroid decides to destroy me. I don't know what to do and who to trust. I'm tired of walking blindly through the never-ending bushes. I think I need to cleanse myself, do the analysis, go do the herbs, all that with exercise. Though while I was distracted by the preparations for 23rd of February, wowagent added that she doesn't add anyone not from her registration link. Oh well. Never mind. Herbs it is.
I feel like I'm letting my son down. I don't know what to do with him. It's like everything I do never makes any difference. I have nothing to teach him but bad habbits and annoying character traits.
Damn, this song is stuck in my head.
Oh life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep an eye on you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
Every whisper
And every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool (fool)
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
Well, consider this
Consider this the end of the century
Consider this as well
It brought me to my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep an eye on you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
And that was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream dream dream dream...
Anouk - Losing my religion (REM cover)
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep an eye on you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
Every whisper
And every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool (fool)
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
Well, consider this
Consider this the end of the century
Consider this as well
It brought me to my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep an eye on you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you strive
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
And that was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream dream dream dream...
Anouk - Losing my religion (REM cover)